For the Fellas

I know it's not just me on this one fellas, so feel free to chime in with a comment and make me feel a little better about what's going on, because I'll know it's not just me...


Okay, you ever had a girl that perfectly embodies Track 10 of So Far Gone? (If you're not familiar enough with the album to know what song that is off the top, it's Best I Ever Had) And you have this girl and she's YOURS...then you get an idea somewhere in your head, this nagging little idea, that makes you think...damn, I'm miserable...I need the single life, I gotta get out of this relationship. At first you dismiss it right? You're like smh, get outta here with that madness! You TRY to push that idea to the back of the thought bus, but it pulls a Rosa Parks....and it's like I'm not moving...it blossoms and gets worse and worse and while this is happening you're subconsciously fucking up your relationship? Well, it happened to me...that nagging thought led me to fuck up my Track 10...but it was okay because she was like "we'll be best friends nothing will change we just won't be officially together." so it was all good! Until that first idea's little cousin Pookie entered my mind...."This is bullshit why's she being like that? You don't need this madness you don't need another best friend." So....I fucked that up too. And now it's like, "we can't be this close anymore, we need to space it out...." So I'm there, at the corner of Fuck-up Avenue, and Memory lane...but everything works for a reason right? I just feel bad for fucking it up so bad and not realizing what's REALLY happening. But I still love her to death and wish the best for her (as long as I don't have to hear about the New Man.....(-_-)) But that's what it is....and HOPEFULLY i'm not the only one going through it.....

Chu'ch